My Journal 2009

As I was reading over my journal entries for 2009, I've come to realize just how far I have come over the last few years.

To be perfectly honest, I don't think that building this website was the best financial decision I could have made. Maybe it will help me in the future... but for now I have taken a financial loss.

Perhaps it was my lack of effort in monetization, but I can't afford to pay another 300$ to keep it running this next year. What I have decided to do is either move the domain name to a free server that I found...I'm not sure that this is possible, but I will certainly look into it when I have more time. Or... I will transfer my content over to blogger where I can still post adsense ads, but I won't have to pay a server fee of $150.00 or more per year + domain name fees... I will lose the domain name if I choose that route, which is sad because I am now #1 on Google for several queries.

But at least I won't lose any more money.

If I had more time I believe it would have gone differently. Bottom line was that I didn't have time to be a Mom, look for a job, and run a website by myself. Let alone promote it too.

My treatment plan is almost a full time job in itself. I have to confess that I haven't been following it as much as I should be. I'm back to where I started with my weight, and there are things about my environment that make it difficult to keep a schedule. I honestly don't think I need it as much now. I can almost snap out of a manic or depressive phase at will with the help of a few simple breathing exercises or cognitive challenges. Not always... but severe episodes seem to be fewer and father between now. I have a better understanding of myself and how I operate.

I haven't made an entry in my journal since The end of November. This is because I found that freelance writing job I was looking for. I've been writing articles like crazy ever since.

This last year had it's ups and downs...I'm bipolar so I'm used to that. All in all I can't complain too much. I did get a lot accomplished in 2009. I spent the entire year analyzing my own mind, and finding ways to repair it. I can't possibly express how much that has helped me recover. It was well worth the $300 to do it and share it with the world.

And now... It's 2010.