September 2009

September 2009 was kind of difficult for me. I had just moved in with a stranger, and there were a few other triggers that caused a depression phase.

I think considering all I was going through I did pretty well. I the past my depression has gotten so bad that I was unable to function for awhile. This year though, I have the tools I need to cope when I have the need.

The feelings of hopelessness and being weighed down are still there for anyone who suffers with this disorder even if they are doing things to control it. I can remember taking medication and still wondering why all I wanted to do was sit there and do nothing. But now I can avoid thoughts that will send me deeper down, and focus on the ones that will bring me back up.

It's nice to have that kind of control over the situation.